Morning of Faithfullness

I have many reason to call my life blessed. I have a wonderful husband who works hard for us to provide what we need. 4 wonderful children that The Lord has entrusted me with. We live in a beautiful State and are fortunate enough to be able to wake up every morning enjoying God's beautiful art work as the sun rises over the farm land and corn fields.
I have especially felt blessed since God has made a way for us to begin Homeschooling our girls, Emily and Gabrielle.
Homeschooling is something I have always felt in my heart I was meant to do and I had tried before but I was not confident and didn't let myself entirely trust God in it.
For the past year I have felt the gentle tugging and whispers of The Lord pulling us in that direction again with the girls...so we began to pray. God spoke to both our hearts and we have brought the girls home and I have been homeschooling them now since August. It has been an amamzing blessing to our family. While it has been such a wonderful thing I have struggled with feelings of inadequacy as I am sure all Homeschooling Mom's do...

I really want to be that quiet and humble wife God has called to me me to be...obeying and respecting my husband and being a witness for Christ to others. I really want to be that sweet and patient Mother and teacher to my kids, and I want to be the Christian woman God has called me to be, quiet and strong and Faithful!!! Always praying, gentle in Spirit, always encouraging, humble and meek....wow...is there such a woman???

Striving to be this has not been an easy thing for me. God has created me with a BIG personality and a BIG mouth to match!!
If you know me personally you are laughing and shaking your head YES right now!! LOL!!
So I struggle everyday with feelings of failure and unworthiness when it comes to righteousness and being that witness for Christ.
As I opened my Bible this morning and I was fighting those feelings once again, I was totally amazed and blessed by God's faithfulness once again.

Lamentations 3: 19-26
I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:
Because of The Lords great love we are not consumed,
for HIS compassion's never fail.
They are new every morning:
GREAT IS YOUR FAITHFULNESS!
I say to myself; "The Lord is my portion:
therefore I will wait for Him."
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him.
it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of The Lord.


This passage both blessed me and had me on my knees this morning...."Oh Lord I am not worthy...Not worthy to carry your Gospel...but I want you to use me"
Sometimes the words that come out my lips are not the words of a righteous woman.
They are not the words of gentle Mother or a loving wife.
Nor the words of an encouraging friend or of wise council. I came before The Lord this morning with shame in my heart...but His word promised me forgiveness and faithfulness...OH GREAT IS THE LORD!!! AND WORTHY TO BE PRAISED!!!
So as I start my day renewed and refreshed...His Mercy IS NEW EACH MORNING!!
And I am a new creation in Christ...through HIM I am the gentle Mother, That wise teacher, A good friend, A humble and obedient wife, a glorious light and witness for HIM!!! I will not let whispers of satan steal that away from me...I will stand of THE WORD OF GOD!! Stand of his MIGHTY PROMISES TODAY!!! AND BE A BLESSINGS TO THOSE AROUND ME!!! Thank you Lord for your Faithfulness!!!
Be Blessed my friends as you go and be that light for Him!!!